Today was full of let downs. My parents get so upset when I don't go to school I feel like I really let them down by not going. My mom doesn't understand any of the things I've been going through. I'm trying to do what's in my best intrest health wise. Unfortunately due to my horrible anxiety and panic attacks going to school isn't in my best intrest right now. I love my parents to death but it's just so weird of them to step in and try to control things seeing as I've been parenting myself for a long time.
I also let myself down. I don't do well with dealing with emotions. I felt like a bad daughter and my brain decided the only way to feel better was to eat a lot. I ate 2 ham sandwhiches, pringles. A bowl of coco pebbles, and 4 mini pancakes. I feel so ashamed and disgusted.
I know it's bad to dwell on mistakes and tomorrows another day but it's hard to be optimistic when I know today should have never happened and I only have myself to blame.