Friday, January 21, 2011
Calling in fat
I sat down with my parents and talked to them about all the crap I've been going through. After I poured my heart out all they said was, "Do you feel better now?" not even in a concerned way. I don't know why I expected them to care. My sister made me feel so bad about purging so I bindged as if it was a way of undoing what I had done. She also told my parents so of course when I was eating they made little side comments about throwing up.
I'm starting the abc diet with my friend Kerry on Monday. So expect to see daily posts on that. I've decided I'm not buying any more Lolita until I finish the diet successfully. If I fail then ll just start over. For me, wearing Lolita is a privilege that I need to earn. I don't know why I thought it was okay to buy it without earning it. I have no right to wear it in the current state I'm in-
This has been an awful week.J